Why didn't I do more?
Posted: Mon Oct 03, 2016 2:15 pm
I'm in pieces today as our little cat, Mojo, was put to sleep yesterday after a very sudden illness. She was off her regular food for a day or two but eating chicken from my hand so I'd planned to take her to her regular vet today. We just put it down to the stress of moving 3 weeks ago as she was always a sensitive little cat.
Yesterday morning we found her behind the sofa unable to stand. We took her immediately to the emergency vet who scanned her liver and told us she was very very poorly. She left us to discus what to do but then called us into a room with Mojo. It was obvious she was very sick and the vet said it would be kinder to let her go. We cried our eyes out as we said goodbye but she knew we were with her and how loved she was.
I'm tearing myself apart now that I didn take her to her vet when I first noticed she wasn't eating as much about 10 days ago but she was always a fussy girl and was still eating so we just thought she was a bit out of sorts. I can't stop thinking that if I'd taken her then she would have been ok. We still have her Mum at home and she seems to be doing ok but I just can't stop crying and wondering "what if". I barely slept last night and had to leave work early as I couldn't stop crying, even though I had an important meeting I should have been at.
I know the pain will ease but I don't think I'll ever forgive myself for not trusting my instincts and taking her to the vet as soon as I noticed she wasn't eating as much. She was only 7 and it's too soon for her to be gone.
Yesterday morning we found her behind the sofa unable to stand. We took her immediately to the emergency vet who scanned her liver and told us she was very very poorly. She left us to discus what to do but then called us into a room with Mojo. It was obvious she was very sick and the vet said it would be kinder to let her go. We cried our eyes out as we said goodbye but she knew we were with her and how loved she was.
I'm tearing myself apart now that I didn take her to her vet when I first noticed she wasn't eating as much about 10 days ago but she was always a fussy girl and was still eating so we just thought she was a bit out of sorts. I can't stop thinking that if I'd taken her then she would have been ok. We still have her Mum at home and she seems to be doing ok but I just can't stop crying and wondering "what if". I barely slept last night and had to leave work early as I couldn't stop crying, even though I had an important meeting I should have been at.
I know the pain will ease but I don't think I'll ever forgive myself for not trusting my instincts and taking her to the vet as soon as I noticed she wasn't eating as much. She was only 7 and it's too soon for her to be gone.