Why does still hurt so much ?
Posted: Tue Oct 30, 2018 11:28 pm
It’s been almost a year (25 November ) since I lost my dear Bertie ,and I feel ,I will never .
Ever get over it ,or move on I feel I am stuck in a rut ,reliving the same nightmare every day. ,of course if I am honest ,I do get my better days ,where I feel I am improving ,but sadly.it isn’t long before ,I feel ,I am slipping back into my old ways , despair followed
By depression ,and a longing so bad it’s painful ,it’s been a while since I asked myself ,
Why did Bertie have too go ? ,haven’t I suffered enough grief and loss ? In the last four years .i have lost ,my mum ,my uncle ,and now Bertie ,so now I find I am asking this question .
Again ,I feel I am going around in circles ,these thoughts and feelings , are leaving me thinking .am I going crazy ..?. I feel sometimes ,I will crack under the pressure of it all,
Every day is a fight ,just too do the simplest of tasks and I feel everything is going wrong .
In my life ,at the moment ,it be good too have a change of luck ,something positive for .
A change , then I will feel ,life is good for a change ,letting Bertie go was the best thing
The kindest , thing I spared him a very painful death ,it was only a matter of time ,still
As you know our cats leave a huge hole in our lives ,and soul one i feel will never ever
Be filled ,their will always be a crack ,even when mended ,Bertie left a huge hole ,
In my life ,still I feel I must fight on ,rip Bertie I love you always xx
Ever get over it ,or move on I feel I am stuck in a rut ,reliving the same nightmare every day. ,of course if I am honest ,I do get my better days ,where I feel I am improving ,but sadly.it isn’t long before ,I feel ,I am slipping back into my old ways , despair followed
By depression ,and a longing so bad it’s painful ,it’s been a while since I asked myself ,
Why did Bertie have too go ? ,haven’t I suffered enough grief and loss ? In the last four years .i have lost ,my mum ,my uncle ,and now Bertie ,so now I find I am asking this question .
Again ,I feel I am going around in circles ,these thoughts and feelings , are leaving me thinking .am I going crazy ..?. I feel sometimes ,I will crack under the pressure of it all,
Every day is a fight ,just too do the simplest of tasks and I feel everything is going wrong .
In my life ,at the moment ,it be good too have a change of luck ,something positive for .
A change , then I will feel ,life is good for a change ,letting Bertie go was the best thing
The kindest , thing I spared him a very painful death ,it was only a matter of time ,still
As you know our cats leave a huge hole in our lives ,and soul one i feel will never ever
Be filled ,their will always be a crack ,even when mended ,Bertie left a huge hole ,
In my life ,still I feel I must fight on ,rip Bertie I love you always xx