Not coping after losing my cat
Posted: Wed Jan 05, 2022 1:37 am
My world is in pieces my beautiful princess Tilly passed away a week ago and every since then I’ve been struggling.
We adopted Tilly it would of been 12 years ago this month within weeks of having her she starting sleeping on my bed in the evening which I didn’t mind over the years she became my mums princess, and she developed illness over the years IBS, asthma having to give her inhalers 3 times a day. She always followed my mum and me about she became my shadow, when my mum became ill after a fall I was really the main one looking after her. In October 19 my mum became I’ll and went into hospital and Tilly became I’ll and vets referred her for treatment in vet hospital she was diagnosed pancreatitis but she fought hard and she came home after week and a half to recover but unfortunately my mum passed away that November it was hard on everyone Tilly knew she would look for mum but she settled and she became my support comforter especially at night. Tilly was later diagnosed with liver damage and then developed diabetes so not just having inhalers she had to have tablets daily and insulin twice a day. But we managed with her comfort it helped me with my grief of losing my mum. She had flare ups and our vets always managed to treat her and she bounced back. On 27th December she was sick and it was a bank holiday so didn’t ring vets until early evening then had to take her out to emergency vets. They took her in I rang them at 9pm and they said she’s settled and starting to improve with treatment but at 6:30am 28th they rang and told us she’s took turn for the worse and wanted us to come. We got there and they gave her to me I cried a lot (still am) they said think she had brain bleed and no longer there but she snuggled into my neck like she usually does when need comfort I stroked her told her she ok then she passed.
Every since then I’m very emotional, feeling lost some family telling me to get over it she was just a pet which hurts my dad even said I’m more upset of Tilly’s death than my mums that was hard … I’m not sleeping or eating I keep blaming myself if I got her treatment straight away like I would of on normal day etc
I cry a lot I’m just struggling doing every day jobs. I hate going to bed at night I sleep with her blanket and still got the ones on my bed just can’t take it off. The house feels empty I feel alone and empty (I’m crying now a lot) so I’m going.
Sorry if I’ve gone on it’s just don’t know what to do Tilly wasn’t just a pet she was my baby girl
We adopted Tilly it would of been 12 years ago this month within weeks of having her she starting sleeping on my bed in the evening which I didn’t mind over the years she became my mums princess, and she developed illness over the years IBS, asthma having to give her inhalers 3 times a day. She always followed my mum and me about she became my shadow, when my mum became ill after a fall I was really the main one looking after her. In October 19 my mum became I’ll and went into hospital and Tilly became I’ll and vets referred her for treatment in vet hospital she was diagnosed pancreatitis but she fought hard and she came home after week and a half to recover but unfortunately my mum passed away that November it was hard on everyone Tilly knew she would look for mum but she settled and she became my support comforter especially at night. Tilly was later diagnosed with liver damage and then developed diabetes so not just having inhalers she had to have tablets daily and insulin twice a day. But we managed with her comfort it helped me with my grief of losing my mum. She had flare ups and our vets always managed to treat her and she bounced back. On 27th December she was sick and it was a bank holiday so didn’t ring vets until early evening then had to take her out to emergency vets. They took her in I rang them at 9pm and they said she’s settled and starting to improve with treatment but at 6:30am 28th they rang and told us she’s took turn for the worse and wanted us to come. We got there and they gave her to me I cried a lot (still am) they said think she had brain bleed and no longer there but she snuggled into my neck like she usually does when need comfort I stroked her told her she ok then she passed.
Every since then I’m very emotional, feeling lost some family telling me to get over it she was just a pet which hurts my dad even said I’m more upset of Tilly’s death than my mums that was hard … I’m not sleeping or eating I keep blaming myself if I got her treatment straight away like I would of on normal day etc
I cry a lot I’m just struggling doing every day jobs. I hate going to bed at night I sleep with her blanket and still got the ones on my bed just can’t take it off. The house feels empty I feel alone and empty (I’m crying now a lot) so I’m going.
Sorry if I’ve gone on it’s just don’t know what to do Tilly wasn’t just a pet she was my baby girl