Recent Loss - gain.
Posted: Wed Jan 25, 2017 4:27 pm
Hello, kinda feel anxious about posting this but I figured it would be nice to have people to relate too. Just last week on Wednesday I lost my 7 year old cat. He hadn't been ill as far as I know so needless to say it was shocking and horrible. The night before he had been cuddly and playful. The next day I found him dead in his bed. We think he had an diagnosed heart condition its the most likely cause of sudden deaths.
Ollie had been the centre of my universe. I suffer from depression and PTSD and he helped so much. To be honest sometimes he was the only thing keeping me going. Particularity after loosing my mum 18 months back. I still miss him and find myself weepy and unmotivated for the most part. I keep wondering if I missed something or did something wrong. He was such a strange cat, unlike any I have owned. He wanted to be cuddled and fussed all the time. If I went out and came home he would cry till I picked him up and cuddled him. To be honest he was more like a living stuffed toy than any animal.I miss him so much.
I adopted a shelter cat fairly quickly (Monday). Part of me feels this is kinda selfish and mean. Honestly having an animal to love and care for really helps with my mental illness. More than any other therapy or medication. I couldn't stand being alone and thought a rescue cat would be as in need as I was. He cant replace Ollie but I thought he would help fill the hole with something new.
Sully is my new cat and was an abandoned stray before getting to the shelter. He spent 6 months there being socialised and was diagnosed with F.I.V. He was largely ignored as his prone to being rather defensive and sometimes even biting. They believe he has suffered abuse but can be very sweet and loving. When I went into the shelter though he came straight up to say hello. Upon finding out he was found on the same estate I grew up in I figured maybe it was meant to be.
His been home a couple of days and has for the most part been affectionate. He has had an upset tummy but after some advice that seems normal for a new home. I'm keeping and eye on him ans slowly introducing him to other people too. Whilst I feel in time we will be good friends I do still feel guilty and sad about my other cat. I'm wondering if anyone has advice or an experience like mine?
Ollie had been the centre of my universe. I suffer from depression and PTSD and he helped so much. To be honest sometimes he was the only thing keeping me going. Particularity after loosing my mum 18 months back. I still miss him and find myself weepy and unmotivated for the most part. I keep wondering if I missed something or did something wrong. He was such a strange cat, unlike any I have owned. He wanted to be cuddled and fussed all the time. If I went out and came home he would cry till I picked him up and cuddled him. To be honest he was more like a living stuffed toy than any animal.I miss him so much.
I adopted a shelter cat fairly quickly (Monday). Part of me feels this is kinda selfish and mean. Honestly having an animal to love and care for really helps with my mental illness. More than any other therapy or medication. I couldn't stand being alone and thought a rescue cat would be as in need as I was. He cant replace Ollie but I thought he would help fill the hole with something new.
Sully is my new cat and was an abandoned stray before getting to the shelter. He spent 6 months there being socialised and was diagnosed with F.I.V. He was largely ignored as his prone to being rather defensive and sometimes even biting. They believe he has suffered abuse but can be very sweet and loving. When I went into the shelter though he came straight up to say hello. Upon finding out he was found on the same estate I grew up in I figured maybe it was meant to be.
His been home a couple of days and has for the most part been affectionate. He has had an upset tummy but after some advice that seems normal for a new home. I'm keeping and eye on him ans slowly introducing him to other people too. Whilst I feel in time we will be good friends I do still feel guilty and sad about my other cat. I'm wondering if anyone has advice or an experience like mine?