I miss her so much it hurts
Posted: Wed Dec 19, 2018 8:57 am
Hello
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I’m so lost right now. On Monday 17th December I had to say goodbye to my beautiful megz. She had been my soul companion and my everything for 16 years. Her birthday had been the week before 12th December. About 4 years ago we where told her kidneys where failing. We did and gave her everything she needed to make her better. In the last week or so her health seemed to deteriorate quickly and she went off her food, although it did seem like she wanted to try and eat but couldn’t. She had blood in her wee and my fella took her to see our vet and he gave her some pain relief and told us to come back in 2 weeks. 1week passed and she seemed to be getting worse. Her back legs had gone and seemed to really hurt her. She couldn’t pur and her meow diddnt sound like her meow any more. I made the decision to take her to see the vet again to get some more medicine. That was the plan anyways. I got there and we agreed to try and get some bloods and pain relief and a tablet that might make her want something to eat. They took her out the back and shortly came back through and said we are sorry she really is unwell. That’s when I had to make one of the hardest desision to say goodbye to my beautiful friend. I held her in my arms and cried into her fur. I told her I loved her so much. The world. I sang her a couple of songs and she passed away in my arms. I stayed with her afterfor a little while longer and then I finally had to leave her. I went home In The car crying all the way. Heartbroken. My fella by that point had already got home to meet me but the fact she was not there to meet me still hurts so bad now. Megz was a house cat and she had many spots around our home. Our home is now empty and I have an aching heart. I decided that megz would have hated to have been put in the garden. There house is where she belongs. On Friday 21st December the winter solstice day she will be collected and will fly on the magic wind. Only magic cats fly on magic wind. I’m a very spiritual person and somehow even though I’m hurting the fact she’s going on such a day brings me a little comfort. I won’t get her ashes back until a week that Friday and feel sad I won’t have her with me for Christmas. I miss her so badly and I can’t take more time off from work. I’m struggling to deal with people who don’t seem to know how exactly I feel with comments of 16years, that’s old she had a good life. That’s my best friend they are talking about and she was kinder to me than any human. I’m lost without her and I miss everything we did together. I know I need to try and remember all the lovely things we did and have but for now the pain is real and I don’t have a lot of time to heal. Please keep your eyes out for my special megz flying on the big smoke 21st December winter solstice day. She will be the brightest star in the sky meowing on the wind. Peace and love always for my beautiful princess cat
I’m new to hear.
I’m so lost right now. On Monday 17th December I had to say goodbye to my beautiful megz. She had been my soul companion and my everything for 16 years. Her birthday had been the week before 12th December. About 4 years ago we where told her kidneys where failing. We did and gave her everything she needed to make her better. In the last week or so her health seemed to deteriorate quickly and she went off her food, although it did seem like she wanted to try and eat but couldn’t. She had blood in her wee and my fella took her to see our vet and he gave her some pain relief and told us to come back in 2 weeks. 1week passed and she seemed to be getting worse. Her back legs had gone and seemed to really hurt her. She couldn’t pur and her meow diddnt sound like her meow any more. I made the decision to take her to see the vet again to get some more medicine. That was the plan anyways. I got there and we agreed to try and get some bloods and pain relief and a tablet that might make her want something to eat. They took her out the back and shortly came back through and said we are sorry she really is unwell. That’s when I had to make one of the hardest desision to say goodbye to my beautiful friend. I held her in my arms and cried into her fur. I told her I loved her so much. The world. I sang her a couple of songs and she passed away in my arms. I stayed with her afterfor a little while longer and then I finally had to leave her. I went home In The car crying all the way. Heartbroken. My fella by that point had already got home to meet me but the fact she was not there to meet me still hurts so bad now. Megz was a house cat and she had many spots around our home. Our home is now empty and I have an aching heart. I decided that megz would have hated to have been put in the garden. There house is where she belongs. On Friday 21st December the winter solstice day she will be collected and will fly on the magic wind. Only magic cats fly on magic wind. I’m a very spiritual person and somehow even though I’m hurting the fact she’s going on such a day brings me a little comfort. I won’t get her ashes back until a week that Friday and feel sad I won’t have her with me for Christmas. I miss her so badly and I can’t take more time off from work. I’m struggling to deal with people who don’t seem to know how exactly I feel with comments of 16years, that’s old she had a good life. That’s my best friend they are talking about and she was kinder to me than any human. I’m lost without her and I miss everything we did together. I know I need to try and remember all the lovely things we did and have but for now the pain is real and I don’t have a lot of time to heal. Please keep your eyes out for my special megz flying on the big smoke 21st December winter solstice day. She will be the brightest star in the sky meowing on the wind. Peace and love always for my beautiful princess cat