My cat passed away last week and I blame myself
Posted: Tue Jun 23, 2020 10:49 am
My beautiful cat Louie passed away last week, he was only 6.5 years old. I am so heartbroken and can’t help but blame myself.
I went away with my partner and my kids on the weekend, my mum came over to feed Louie. On Sunday when we got back I noticed Louie hadn’t eaten much that day, over the next 2 days he wasn’t really himself, didn’t eat much, didn’t want to go outside, he just slept next to the heater in my sons room. I tried to get him to eat little bits and he did on the Tuesday. I said to myself if he doesn’t perk up by tomorrow I will call the vet to come. Wednesday morning there was a bit of food gone from his bowl and he stood at the door to go outside, I let him out thinking he had perked up a little bit and maybe he wanted to go to the toilet or just get some fresh air after being inside for a few days. My 10 month old was really sick that day with high temps and I got distracted and lost sight of Louie.
He never came back... which wasn’t all that uncommon, Louie had gone many times staying outside all night or disappearing for a day, he ran the neighbourhood. I spent the next 2 days looking for him with a terrible feeling in my stomach, before finding him dead down his favourite drain on Friday. Myself and my kids are devastated and I don’t know how to move past this, how to stop blaming myself. We will miss Louie, he was the best cat, gave us lots of laughs, it’s hard to get used to him not being around.
I hate not having closure, not knowing what was wrong with him and what caused his death. I wish I did more.
I went away with my partner and my kids on the weekend, my mum came over to feed Louie. On Sunday when we got back I noticed Louie hadn’t eaten much that day, over the next 2 days he wasn’t really himself, didn’t eat much, didn’t want to go outside, he just slept next to the heater in my sons room. I tried to get him to eat little bits and he did on the Tuesday. I said to myself if he doesn’t perk up by tomorrow I will call the vet to come. Wednesday morning there was a bit of food gone from his bowl and he stood at the door to go outside, I let him out thinking he had perked up a little bit and maybe he wanted to go to the toilet or just get some fresh air after being inside for a few days. My 10 month old was really sick that day with high temps and I got distracted and lost sight of Louie.
He never came back... which wasn’t all that uncommon, Louie had gone many times staying outside all night or disappearing for a day, he ran the neighbourhood. I spent the next 2 days looking for him with a terrible feeling in my stomach, before finding him dead down his favourite drain on Friday. Myself and my kids are devastated and I don’t know how to move past this, how to stop blaming myself. We will miss Louie, he was the best cat, gave us lots of laughs, it’s hard to get used to him not being around.
I hate not having closure, not knowing what was wrong with him and what caused his death. I wish I did more.